Welcome To My Poetry Corner

Valmira Linnea Evelina Emelie Irasema

Valmira

I've been searching for my love, for a long long time.
My feelings had no meaning, nor any freakin' rhyme.
Now that I've found you, it all should be clear,
but I cant stop my love, to grow faster with fear.
Fear that I will show you, how much I really care,
That I want the rest of your life, with me to be shared.

Ever since we gave each other, butterflies for a start.
You're still a pounding part, in the bottom of my heart.
I can't help thinking, we got the whole world fighting us.
Location and background, that's our unnecessary lovingfuss.
But I won't be a part, of any halfhearted way of solution.
You need my broken heart, I need an end of confusion.

And don't tell me, I didn't love you enough.
You said stop, and I just ended it rough.
I tried to stop myself earlier, cause I already knew.
But instead I opened up, and explained everything to you.
Still you would not give in, for my emotions and love.
So I keep asking myself, why this angel from above?

Do you remember how I, was so eager to meet you?
You were not even ready, but you wanted it too.
I know I set up the rules, like meet me or leave me,
but you gave it a chance, like how bad could he be?
And when we finally met, and we held each other tight,
I will always remember, that feeling was all right.




Time passed and we knew, something was totally wrong,
no one could be sure, could feelings really be this strong?
But the power of love, drove us to the core,
we just had to find out, and meet each other once more.
Just to see my face, you traveled five hours with train,
Who would've thought love, could be this insane?

I waited at the station, you came with the spring,
but you really are, the most beautiful thing.
Attacked with open arms, we hugged each other tight,
we could've stayed like that, till the end of the light.
I remember you warm face, looking sweet in the sun,
we kissed each other carefully, even with tongue.

I could no longer stop, my feelings of pray,
so I gave you myself, to make me your day.
Three days later, you can't take it anymore.
Why travel alone, what do you take me for?
We can solve, and go through this together,
I know already, that would be so much better.

Your good expressions, in my mind so deep,
I keep whispering your name, before I go to sleep.
Everything about you, so tender and sweet,
I'm burning inside, but you are the heat.
All I can do, is giving you time,
waiting and waiting, for you to be mine.




Please find yourself, and let me know when you are whole,
I'll try to wait, cause I want to know your soul.
If you get into trouble, and you need a friend,
just give me a call, I'll help you to mend.
But whatever you think, and whatever you do,
I want you to know, I will always love you.

I miss you so much, I dont know what to do.
If I give you a call, I will hurt you too.
Days feels like weeks, and time stands still,
I try to forget you, but it makes me feel ill.
I'm standing in the darkeness, no light to be found,
and my heart is screaming: Dont break this bound!

My endless love, is one of a kind.
My soul and mind, will never be blind.
I can see you now, and wherever you are.
You don't have to be, a perfect star.
My feelings for you, will always be straight.
So how about, my heart of faith?

In this poetry of love, I can't show you for real,
this is only words, to describe how I feel.
I wanna be with you, every night and day,
everytime you leave, I want you to stay.
Stay with me forever, let me give you my soul,
I want you forever, you make me feel whole.




We met again, to talk this roller coaster through,
but words don't come easy, when feelings are so true.
Two great souls, so eager to meet,
two lost hearts, pounding in beat.
But we didn't get far, before we felt pain.
Your mind and heart, were fighting again.

You wanted this, to be our last night,
the last time, to feel all right.
But I told you, I want you more than this,
I love you too much, for just one last kiss.
You wanted us, to make love again,
but I can't show, my love for vain.

I know our love, shouldn't be pushed aside,
but I really need, to keep my pride.
If you really want this, to be good bye,
I wanna step out, with my head kept high.
But our endless love, went once again insane,
we made each other feel, like sunshine in the rain.

Our love is like, too good to be true,
but please don't fear, that it's up to you.
You just followed your heart, that leads to me,
I know you wanna scream, cause I set you free.
In our night of love, you cried out to me,
I will always remember, who's heart I could see.




I wake up in the nights, lost in pain,
I know I've dreamed, about you again.
When I dream about you, I got no walls of protection,
walls to help me, with this love infection.
I know I've seen you, in my dreams so clear,
still I can't touch you, with my love of fear.

I can feel my soul, teared wide open,
my heart is bleeding, and it's broken.
My mind is screaming, for you to come back,
and whatever you think, I don't want to give a fuck.
I know you want your feet, back on the ground,
but I'm already standing, and you're already found.

Can't you look back, can't you see what you've done,
Together we got everything, and without we got none.
Why do you do this, you're tearing us apart,
you know already, we need each other's heart.
Why don't you make it easy, and just give in for this,
Don't you want to live up, to our very first kiss?

Everytime we meet, we can leave the ground,
we give each other wings, and makes the world go round.
I can't believe you think, this is the best thing to do,
why make this heaven wait, we're just waiting for you.
You got nothing to be afraid of, or ashamed of to me,
you've looked me in my eyes, I know what you see.




I'm standing on the edge, to hell again.
But my head is kept high,
I will never die.

I've been to heaven, I know what it's like.
But my memories of you,
will always do.

I know you want me, to live on and smile.
But I can't be happy yet,
this is my regret.

Don't you worry about me, I'll travel the world.
But I know that you care,
and that's what we share.

I can't stop wondering, what your love is worth.
But even if my butterflies cry,
they will never die.

I don't want to push you away, with my endless love.
But the emotions I can not hide,
are so pure from my inside.

You're afraid that our love, will come to an end.
But still you act like you know everything,
when I wanna be your steady king.

I can't stop asking my self, and try to understand your mind.
But remember this endless love is better,
and we can go through this together.

We got everything against us, and it makes things worse.
But I know our love is the strongest ever,
and I wanna be with you now and forever.




Finally I can start look back, at the memories of you,
without going insane, or don't know what to do.
Earlier you made my heart, beat too hard and too fast,
but my soul have now accept that, your love could not last.

Before I met you, I'd never been able to write poetry.
But it makes sense, since you've been my only cup of tea.
I am forever grateful, for everything you've shown me.
And dont you worry about me, I'm already smiling you see.

I don't regret a single thing, that've happened to me.
Because of you I know, what life is meant to be.
Even if I need to search, and try to find my new love,
I'm gonna make sure that angel, won't be from above.




If you are the arrow, and I am the bow,
then where did I take you? I'd like to know.
Even though that you, just ripped us apart,
I can still hear, the beat from your heart.

I keep asking myself, if you're really from above,
And why do I desvere, this unanswered love?
I don't know what to do, am I going insane?
And will another woman be able, to make me feel the same?

Did you take my heart, cause you'd lost your own?
Or was it just because, you were afraid of being alone?
But now I'm still standing here, and my heart is lost.
Maybe I was blind, or didn't care what it'd cost?

If I wouldn't have shown you, how much I really cared,
I'd never been able to forgive myself, to lose love by fear.
I wish that my heart, have made you grown,
I wish you're happy, despite you pulled me down.




Someone closed the door to your heart for years,
I can't imagine how you fought with pain and tears.
But after 3 beautiful days, I opened that door,
I wanted to show you so badly, what my love is for.
I felt that my love hadn't touched you enough.
But to open your heart, was pretty rough.

If you only knew how careful I tried to be,
but you of anyone should be able to see.
Before I opened your heart, in our priceless night,
I made sure to hold you, so tenderly and tight.
Then straight from my heart, I told you what I feel,
And then finally you showed me, your feelings for real.

Even if that kind of love, only lasted that night,
I know darkness doesn't exist, without that light.
I will not cry over you, cause I've not given up.
My heart may be frozen, but it hasn't stopped.
I want to hold you, till the end of time,
I just want to hold you, till the end of time.




We met again cause I wanted to change the destiny for us,
I had to see you again, no matter what it would cost.
We've been writing and hurting each other, trying to run,
trying to run from what we've finally become.
But why do we have to escape our love and all it's power,
why do you always want to think that it has to be over?

You've always wanted this reality to come to an end,
and all I want to do is to make it amend.
You've never been more awake than when you're with me,
what are you afraid of, don't you wanna be free?
Take my hand you know I will never let go,
there is so much more in life I want you to know.

I know you more than anyone else have ever done,
you know I understand why you're always on the run.
I just want you to let go and stay by my side,
I know you've pictured yourself as my beautiful bride.
You tell me you want everything with me, over and over again,
but only you can end this suffering and release our pain.

I got nothing to lose cause you've already stolen my heart,
It's always been you and me, and nothing can tear us apart.
I've been fighting for us, even when you've said it's over,
you of all should know I want to be more than your lover.
I know I've always been riding in the fast lane with you,
but it's because I love you so much, if you only knew.




I know you're reading, I know you're there,
because you know I can tell you, what you really wanna hear.
I know you've been thinking of the last time we met,
you never thought I would abuse love to get you wet.
But that's not the reason I keep on writing this poetry,
I just want you to know how much you've meant to me.

You were my first real love, and I never thought love could be like this.
I'd never experienced so much emotions caused by just one kiss.
For six fucking years I'd been living a lie,
but you're the one who taught me, how it was to fly.
I felt how my life turned upside down and I found a reason to live on,
but the great distance to you made me afraid of what I would become.

But I'm not afraid anymore, because my heart have been covered in black,
I've tricked death and climbed up from the hell, just to get back.
Just to get back to see the sun rise again and never give up a fight,
because I know what I want and I know what I can do to make it all right.
I remember how you tried to see my old pure red heart the last time we met,
you even tried to cry out to me to feel it, but there was nothing you could get.

But believe me, under this darkness I'm still the same you once touched,
I'm still the one that you once couldn't stand up for to just catch.
I'm still burning wild inside this shell of sorrow that I try to hide,
I want to realease it and I wouldn't mind to have you by my side.
You know I can give you everything you've ever dreamed of with me.
After all we've been through, there's no mistake we were meant to be.

Fredrik - July 2008







Linnea

Why am I writing, this poetry again,
am I going weak, or am I going insane?
No, I think I just like to express my feelings,
I can't help it gives me, a taste of healing.
But this poem is not to my runaway,
this poem is for you, my zombie pray.

I can't help listening to the zombies at night,
should I bring my bananabox and start a fight?
Should I run to the station and get on a train,
fight all the zombies and slip on my brain?
But in my bananabox, I can run and hide,
just to shut the fuck up and keep my pride.

But I'd love to get out of this fucking place,
just brainstorm and travel to the outer space.
You only live once, why should I wait for hell?
I just keep on falling, and once again I fell.
But why am I standing, no matter what happens to me,
could it be my supernatural spirit, that set things free?

I can't help I go with the take it or leave it,
and if there's no reply, I'm not gonna wait to recieve it.
I'm trying to run, but I ramble in slowmotion,
I wanna release my wings, but it's my own emotion.
I wish I could just leave, and do the mother earth,
just live my life for the day, and make my mind fly away.




I'm sorry I took off, but I'm not coming back,
My heart is fucked up, and I'm out of luck.
We cant stay friends, with my feelings like this,
if I would ever meet you, I would steal a kiss.
And after a kiss, you'd think: Now what?
- But I would never leave ya, are you fucking nuts!?

It's sad we had so much in common, you and I,
but I'll try to find someone else, before I'll die.
I will never forget, the funny zombiehamster though,
just like the damn dressing mix, you of all know.
When I get rich, I'm going to japan for sure,
gonna find my new path, and another door.

Damn, I wish money could grow on a tree,
I'd just climb up, pick some, and then be free.
Life is unfair, and god is a joke,
but if he'd existed, I'd know who to choke.
First I'd let you jump on his head,
Then I'd do the choking if he's not already dead.

hmmmm, I should write something more here,
to end this poetry with something touching,
And now I'm not even rhyming in the end hah.
But who gives a fuck, different is unbeatable!
However, Don't write to me cause of this poem hole,
I'm just another bad ass mother fucking totem pole.




Oh my fucking god, (if he would exist)
I wanted to write more, I couldn't resist.
I was thinking of our tuned up, unbeatable golf car,
the car you could actually use, in a global ground war.
I remember how it saved us several times,
like in the olympic games where we made terrifying crimes.

It had a radio and buttons for super fast speed,
it had a horn and a seat, all that you need.
Pushing the red button and the car went wreeeeeeee,
and you and I was like going iiiiiiiiiih!
But I got more than this car to write about,
like how badly I just want to twist and shout.

Theese butterflies, are so great and stupid,
And I can not be sure on what the fuck you did.
Sure you're beauty makes everybody think twice,
and most people know you're actually nice.
But I fell for your spirit, your view of things,
your crazy mind and the happiness it brings.

This poetry really makes me feel stronger,
but I don't think this poem will get any longer.
I've not written about everything that've crossed my mind,
if I would, I know this poem, would be one of a kind.
I could end this poem with hearts and flowers like you,
but that obviously means nothing, I guess a hug would do.




Dammit, I really got a nice touching end over there,
still I keep on writing, do I have more to share?
Do I have problems with giving up or what?
Maybe I should turn off the computer and just stop.
It's in the middle of the night and I should actually sleep,
but I thought of the afterlife and then you as a sheep.

But it's always hard to sleep the entire night,
when all I want to be is your fairytale knight!
I know we would say that was a very nice thing to say,
though it's pretty pointless, when you're so far away.
I should really go to sleep now, but I'm not even tired,
I got work tomorrow morning, if I'm not already fired.

Naah, I really like my work and I'm doing good,
it's so nice to know all the fruits in the neighborhood.
No really, most people can actually be compared with a fruit,
then I tried to compare you, but you're too fucking cute!
Oh my god, where did all those kind words come from?
But I know it's always appreciated and fun to hear some.

It's pretty late now, I'm going to bed,
else my workmates will wonder if I'm not already dead.
I can't wait to get to my fruitful work,
pick the same fucking boxes like another dork.
Sweet dreams sugertop, I miss you like hell,
I didn't have to write that, I know you can tell.




My heart must be split in three pieces now,
and I try to carry on with one of 'em somehow.
I can't help I say whatever I think in despair,
my heart have been bleeding ever since March this year.
I have an endless scar right through my chest,
if you wanna have a look, be my guest.

But I dont wanna blame anyone else than me for my scar,
if you dont take any chances, you will never get far.
But it's still weird, how I don't regret a single thing,
I am the one I am, and over my life I'm the king.
I dont know if my heart will ever be the same,
but no one will ever be able to kill my flame.

You may wonder how I can write like this from my heart,
but I guess me and my self-confidence can't be told apart.
Though it also has it's back sides, people may see it, but I can't,
to some things, that I can't imagine, I might act arrogant.
Though it's not my reasons, cause I only mean well,
even if I don't believe in god and in the church rather yell.

We found each other when I was under the ice,
You helped me back and gave my life more spice.
However, It's sad that I didn't found you in the start of the year,
then I'd probably play my cards differently and use another gear.
But then again I have no regrets I swear,
I know already I've made myself clear.




I know I told you we should stay friends till the end of the light,
but you started to play with words that I can not handle all right.
And when I asked you what you meant with a certain phrase,
you said you didn't think and sent it before the erase.
But that really pisses me off, cause I didn't think it was that bad,
but when I approach disrespect like that, I can't help to get mad.

I wanted to believe in, that some stuff that you wrote were true,
but every time I started wonder, I just wanted to get away from you.
I didn't want to leave you, cause I really care about you,
but when I'm getting played, I know exactly what I have to do.
Sure I could count this as my loss if it makes you feel better than me,
I don't give a shit about it cause I just wanna be straight and free.

Looks like I'm a bit frustrated and feel rage inside,
I guess it's normal when your crush have been fried.
I try to express my feelings in this work of poetry,
but emotions can't be described when it's all about me.
But I do my best to make you get a little view,
of how easy it is to open up and try to be true.

People will probably wonder what the fuck we've been talking about,
but I dont give a shit cause memories like theese, I don't wanna live without.
However, if they ask me, I won't hesitate to tell them the craziest stories,
whatever you do with your life, I'm gonna be okay, so there's no need for worries.
I thought of ending this poem with something emotional, but it's enough,
I rather encourage you to go easy with the salt, and stay tough.




I didn't know that your feelings were the same for me,
your explaination was enough to set my broken heart free.
I'm so sorry I made you cry over me and my action,
but you drive me crazy with your beauty and attraction.
I may be a little crazy when it comes to an end,
but that makes me special and you're my best friend.

Did I just point out that you're as crazy as me?
Oh yes, but I've already thrown myself over the edge you see.
To people, I probably look stupid when you think about it,
but when you jump after me, then they start laugh about it.
It's so hard to believe that we have so much to share,
Even if I may look evil, you know how much I care.

After what seemed to be a lifetime, we started to write again,
you cried of happiness and I'm the one to blame.
But it was great to know that the reason was the other way around,
cause making you sad is like knocking myself down to the ground.
Once again I asked you if we could finally meet and let me hold you as my pray,
but it was already evening and you had to get up early to work the following day.

You explained how scared you were of that I would leave you again,
but you should know that my feelings are exactly the same.
So despite I got the "no I can't" for an answer of my request,
I could somewhat handle it better with my now unchained and released chest.
But this heartbreaking flame I had been impossible to put out,
was burning wilder than ever, and the next day it shout.




It was playing with my mind, if you only knew!
It destroyed all my inhibitions just because of you.
I went to my car and called you with my walkie talker,
how did I know your number, maybe I'm a little stalker?
But my stoneage phone had lost the connection,
maybe it had been affected by this love infection?

But I could send messages with it to you my pray,
so I wrote and explained how I was on my way.
I thought you would think I was going insane or something like that,
but your fast and happy reply made me able to just lean back.
So there I was, on my way to finally meet you,
I can't say I drove legally, but that's nothing new.

It was funny how I just took off, and how I'd forgot the way.
I'd forgot the name of the road and that was not okay!
Somehow I had driven too far and I was on the other side of town,
so I started to ask people about the road like a fucked up clown.
But I found a handful poeple who actually knew something about the way,
so I kept telling myself that I could actually make it before the next day.

Then, when I almost had lost the hope to find your home,
a fatty knew the road, so I drove there and grabbed my phone.
I wrote how I was on your road and needed a number to your house,
I saw the motor heat was over 100 degrees, but I was more aroused.
You wrote me the number and told me you were going out to wave,
My blood was rushing like crazy through my veins, - I better behave!




I saw you wave like an angel in the dark night,
I'd almost forgot how to park a fucking car all right!
But somehow, I managed to stop the town's most dangerous car,
and there you were, my unbelievable and beautiful shining star.
I stepped out, and before I'd closed my door, you were there in my embrace,
we hugged each other so tight, and there we finally stood, face to face.

We looked each other in each others deep and burning eyes,
I couldn't imagine how lips could touch that gentle and nice.
Ever since that priceless moment, I know why sugar no longer taste sweet,
with you, I'm all I want to be, cause you're my never ending heartbeat!
But I have to admit I'm a little afraid of showing you how much a really care,
I try not to be all over you, I don't wanna be to much for you to bear.

I can't help I'm so emotional, even this poetry doesn't really make sense,
cause I try to hold myself back and that's why I might act a little dense.
I know what I want and I think you can figure that out with me,
but I don't want to rip my heart out from my chest just to make you see.
I want you to discover my soul and spirit on your own,
so you can understand, that I will never let you down.

I can not be sure on how you think about everything that I've done,
but I could guess that you still believe in that I'm on the run.
That I've got a past, I want to run a away from, and try to get over,
but believe me when I say, that when I'm with you, I'm going nowhere.
You're the one I've been looking for, you're the one I adore,
you're the one I wanna be there for, you're the one, I'm sure!




I just had to call you and ask if we could get in touch.
You said yes and came over, I've missed you so much!
Just to sit there on the station and wait for the train,
it's a pain in the ass but it will never be in vain.
I can wait for you forever, I think you understand,
I'm so happy to just walk with you and to hold your hand.

I took the car to the station, I might be a lazy bum,
but I like to run over people with it, it's pretty fun!
I wanted to spin with the car and go with crazy fast speed,
but then you'd probably have asked for my very last weed.
We stepped out of my car and started to walk to my place,
fortunately we didn't get totally tricked by the garbage-cans grace.

Then we got to my home and you started to run around,
and I was just hoping my porn couldn't be found.
Then you saw the subwoofer and your eyes jumped out of your head,
I thought I should pick them up, but I turned on the sub instead.
Then I started some music and you sat there in my knee,
it was so sweet and relaxing, till the monster got free?

Some stuff in the room started to move in beat with the sub,
but now we know that we don't have to go to an inner city club.
I turned down the volume a bit and started some sweet ballad music,
I wanted to turn on something else, but then, what would you pick?
You were pretty tired and then your headache started to grow in your head,
but you know you can always be yourself with me and just stay in our bed.




I feel so relaxed with you and it's just getting better.
I'm so happy that we've finally ended up together.
Everything that crosses my mind, I can say it to you,
cause we think exactly the same and you know it too.
This priceless mutual understanding is a little hard to explain,
but it's like we've always been on the very same train.

Cause when I was knocked down, I just had to get to the other tram,
and when I finally found you, I just had to tell you who I am.
I want to explain and speak out how much I really love you,
but my heart is so weak so the effect would not sound true.
I rather wait so I can tell you straight from my heart,
I just hope you won't be afraid of my untamed spark.

You know I've been talking with my former girlfriend the last days.
She contacted me cause her jealousy was too hard for her to face.
Yesterday we talked with each other over the phone during the whole night,
I guess it was good, cause we cleared out all unanswered questions all right.
Anyways, we've finally cut all the bands and will never more speak.
We've promised each other that everything will only be memories to keep.

All I can say is that I'm sorry I have to drag you through my past,
but I had to end the last chapter just to make sure you and I will last.
I'm feeling so much stronger with you, that's why I want to meet you so much more,
maybe you could ask me out sometime, but that's maybe to much to ask for.
But I won't tolerate if I will become and turn out to be one of your "must",
I hate time, but that's maybe what I need now, to gather all of your trust.




I'm glad to hear you like this poetry I'm writing for you and me,
but I'm a little afraid of that I will run out of words you see.
It feels like I'm using just the same words from time to times,
like it's just to make this poem float properly with beats and rhymes.
I've heard from more people I know, that they like what I've stated,
but you're the one and only reason that keeps me this motivated.

You told me you would like to read something about our cooking and food,
especially about the kebab I was so happy to hear you thought was good.
I remember how I devided the frozen kebab and put it in the frying pan,
I asked you to help me with the salad, then I got a really good plan.
My hands got so cold with the frozen kebab, I should put them on your back,
but I know you'd pulled me into the freezer and then I'd been totally fucked up.

So I thought I better behave and don't try to start a cosy fight,
but who should I blame if the kebab wouldn't turn out all right?
I could say that the frying pan was bad or the kebab was out of date,
or I could just be honest and say that making food is what I really hate.
But that kind of makes sense since the other day I set the kictchen on fire,
no I didn't do that, but is it so hard to believe that it's one of my desires?

First I found it weird how I kind of enjoyed to make something for us to eat,
but now I understand that it's because you're the only one I really want to treat.
The evening came faster than ever and you asked me to walk you to the station,
but don't ever ask me stuff like that, you should know what I do without hesitation.
I'll never leave you alone, I'll always be there for you and stand by your side,
let my love be your home and I will stay with you till the day I'll die.




I never thought I'd be the one to break up with you,
I tried to hold on to us, and then just to you.
But even though I lost myself, it was not enough,
you just stood there, icecold, pretending to be tough.
Maybe you've never touched someone's soul like mine,
someone that want you more than the fucking sunshine.

You never asked me out, not even one single time,
But yet I always made you feel beautiful and fine.
I've tried to understand your complex style of life,
but I always end up like I've been stabbed with a knife.
I make you feel fine cause you know how much I care,
still you act like I am the fucking nightmare.

But I probably turned your life upside down,
and you felt like you were going to drown.
But even if that's the reason we've been torn apart,
you should know, that you'd just drown in my broken heart.
I fought for our love and fucked up realtionship.
And I could've killed for your sugarsweet underlip.

It was not easy to be pushed away, and then just go back.
Just go back to end what I believed in was more than luck.
And when we stood there outside your house and I told you it was over,
you just answered okey, goodbye, and went inside for cover.
Either you were laughing or crying, I don't give a shit,
now you can do whatever you want without having me ruin it.




However, I can't stop dreaming about you in the nights,
I wake up and I'm about to turn on the lights.
But I can't, cause I want to dream more about you,
I can never get enough of whatever you do.
I'm thinking of you, every fucking single day now,
hows the cute crazy cat doing, that can't say meow?

I want to call you, but I better wait on the internet,
I'm wondering if there's things I couldn't interpret.
Even in theese dead end days I try to be strong,
but I just keep on wondering, wtf did I do wrong?
I waited two fucking months to just be with you again,
but your cold presence made me feel like a heavy chain.

If I was sucha burden, why didn't you end what we had?
Maybe it was that you were afraid of making me sad?
But shutting me out is the worst thing you can do,
all I wanted was to be loved, just like I love you.
Maybe you're afraid of love since it can bring you down,
but how am I suppose to know from the other side of town?

My precious life haven't been a dance on roses too,
but I can open up and exlpain everything to you.
What did I do and what've you done for me,
what should I do to make you understand and see?
Like when I state we need to see each other more,
you just answer I know, but I can hear how you roar.




I'm back in the darkness, you could call it hell,
but I'm not gonna creep back into my shell.
I need an explaination and I'm gonna get it,
I've sent you a letter, I hope you've read it.
I wish you can tell me everything I need to understand,
cause I still wanna be your knight in this wonderland.

I know you're sick and there's nothing to do about it,
but I'm with you, and you know how I want to fight it.
I've tried to make you understand that you're not alone,
I want my embrace to make you feel safe and home.
I want to spend the rest of my life with you,
but then I need love and your point of view.

I don't know if you can forgive me for what I've done,
but I want your love and I do anything to get some.
You already know me and I don't use to ask for any help,
but you know I treat you as I want to be treated myself.
I want you back to love me, cause I love you crazy much,
but if I'm worthy you and your love is not for me to judge.

I dont know anymore what to write to make you see,
so I thought maybe I should climb up in a tree.
Then I could make crazy sounds and scream like a monkey.
And I wouldn't mind to have a big pink dress on me.
I wouldn't mind at all to be honest - yeehaa
I do anything to make you smile, because I love you Linnea!




I'm sorry I thought we could just stay friends just like that,
but you're so much more to me than just a crazy beautiful cat.
I dream about you every fucking singel night and I can't stop,
every time you write to me I can hear how my heart is about to crack.
My feelings are burning inside and there is nothing I can do about it.
But I know what it means and now I need to get away from it.

Everything I do, or feel, or things I see, I associate it with you,
I'm getting colder and colder and I can't explain things like I'm used to.
There's a heavy wall around my heart and inside there's chaos and fire,
I don't want to drag your heart any further through this unavoidable mire.
It's so hard for me to let go, because I'm the last one to give up love for nothing,
I really tried to hold on to you, but I couldn't make us fly with only one wing.

You tell me you won't say goodbye and that you will wait for me to come back,
But I'm not like everybody else, and you know I'm not gonna get back on track.
Life goes on and I'll find another path, cause the one to you was obviously not for me,
I hope you'll find someone better than me, someone that you can love and try to see.
You are more to me than just my best friend at the other side of town,
cause you're the only one who could make me smile when I was down.

I will never forget you, no matter what happens to me,
I will always remember, the first time we were free.
Maybe I'm just a poor ghost like your parents stated,
but I don't give a fuck if I'm welcomed or hated.
I went to your place because I love you,
I went to your place for you to love me.




I must end this poetry I'm writing too, I have to disappear.
I never thought my life would turn out to be this unfair.
Why do I find the reasons so pointless, why do I feel this deja vu,
are people afraid to open up, afraid to tell me the truth?
I know my spirit better than anyone else, and it's one of a kind,
It's probably one of the strongest, and maybe that's what tears your mind.

If I scare you let me know, because I just give what I want to get back,
if my emotions are to much to return, then please just tell me to stop.
I've never got my love returned, maybe I never will,
but this soul and spirit of love you can never kill.
love me, or don't love me at all,
for you, I gladly crush my wall.

I need someone to take care of my feelings, not throw them away,
I need someone to take me back, someone who wants me to stay.
If there is just one single butterfly still flying for me in you,
I do anything to make it last forever and you know it's true.
I don't know what to write to make you understand my feelings for you,
I just want to hold you closer than ever and never make you feel blue.

I always put my cards on the table, to let you know my feelings are true,
you're the one to decide your destiny, I can just leave it up to you.
I'm not the most handsome guy around, but I got you the purest heart,
I make you smile, I make you feel beautiful, and that's a start.
I want to hold you in my embrace during every single endless night,
just hold you so close, never let go, and make you feel all right.

Fredrik - September 2008







Evelina

This feels weird, why am I writing?
I don't think, it's the past I'm fighting.
Maybe I'm dreaming, or give myself hope,
maybe I've finally climbed this uphill slope?
But I know one thing, and that's what I want.
I want to meet you, but it seems like I can't.

I've already got a bad feeling about this.
How to make you see I can bring us the bliss?
And how far am I capable to go for this chance,
but believe me when I say I've picked up my lance.
I won't rush into this wildernes and get totally lost,
because I know what I'm doing and what it might cost.

People keep saying that love is priceless and so much more,
but doesn't it depends on what you value and what your heart is for?
Oh I wish you could believe in me and see me soon,
because I want to believe in that you're like the moon.
Brightening up my sky of darkness, a long and lonesome night,
and in return I'd be your one and only, forever true knight.

Oh I miss words to describe who I am and how I feel,
it's so hard to explain, I rather show you for real.
I better end this poem for now, maybe it's all in vain,
but no matter what I'm happy, you've made me write poetry again.
I haven't been able to write poetry for several months you know,
I guess that makes you special and harder for me to let go.




Why o why did this turn out to be so complicated and bad,
we were suppose to meet and now you've only made me sad.
Why did you change your mind, why don't you wanna see me?
I believe it was not your decision to just take off and flee.
I'm so different to other people, I'm so one of a kind,
I guess we have a great time writing, because you're not blind.

There are things you're hiding from me, things you won't tell.
But you should open up to me, because I'll be your shell.
I want to know so much more about you, and your time online is not enough,
I just wanna sit down with you, have a talk, and hear you laugh.
Is that too much to ask for now that you know my crush?
Don't you wanna know if there can be anything between us?

We might not end up together when everything comes around,
but wouldn't you like to find out if we can leave the ground?
I know you're a thinker, and you probably believe in the worse,
but wouldn't it be sweet to just set sail and follow the wind for a new course?
I think it would be very cosy, you and me in a little ship on the sea,
travel the world with joy, to find out if we're meant to be.

Maybe this poem will be all in vain, but I don't care,
there's so much more with you I want to share.
You've said you like it, but I don't know what to believe in.
This is however the only way you've let me explain this feeling.
You will never understand love, if you leave it like this,
I can only show you, with an embraced kiss.

Fredrik - January 2009







Emelie

Maybe it's pointless to make a poem like this for you,
But I care about you and this is all I can do.
For about one month ago, I found myself ready for someone new.
Someone I'd like to give the meaning of life another view.
And I couldn't help you were the only one that crossed my mind.
I wish I'd tried harder to see you, now I just wanna rewind the time.

I no longer know how to put my cards on the table,
Is it too late to make my feelings to you seem stable?
I've tried to hide my feelings for you, ever since you said stop,
but you should know that my unlimited emotions I can not just drop.
You've explained to me about your principles and that made me fall,
but just recently you mentioned that you might throw those into the wall.

Your shilly-shallying is not making it easy for me,
and you already know how short-tempered I can be.
But I can't help that I really want to believe in you,
and you should know that I'm afraid to lose you too.
I would say that's a very good reason to see me.
A very good reason to understand and feel me.

I find you very interesting, funny, cute and smart,
and I know I should be the one to kickstart your heart.
I know how you wonder, will our chemistry work out?
But believe me when I say that's nothing to worry about.
You have no clue how much I really care about you,
I'm the only one who should make your butterflies come true.




I find it so hard to stop writing this poem for you,
maybe it's because I made you jealous, just like I knew.
Ever since we had the talk about our writing,
about how that you almost never started the typing,
and you said that you thought it was the other way around,
I finally understood what an interesting woman I've found.

I think that for your age you seem to be so very grown up,
so I can't help wondering what the fuck do I lack?
I really wonder if you find me five years older than you,
but I think it depends on how you look it through.
I bet you wonder when looking at my spirit and lust,
but that you find me very grown up, when it comes to trust.

However, I'm not suprised if you can see it in me,
because I got the purest heart and I'd like you to see it.
But maybe that's what you're afraid of, to embrace my heart,
maybe your principles is not what holds us apart.
I bet you've given the future many thoughts as well,
just remember that for you I would walk through hell.

I really want to see you, what should I do?
I feel so helpless when it's all up to you.
You know I got a crush on you that you've made me hide,
and I've hidden it, to not make you worry, still standing by your side.
If that isn't sweet, then please let me know,
because I don't want my feelings, to go with the flow.




You've made me dream again, could you be the one?
Or will you just leave it like this and take it one the run?
You should know I only want to know who you are,
find out if you're that beautiful, unexplored star.
I want to know if you're the one I've been looking for,
I want to know if I've finally reached the shore.

And don't think that I care about how you look,
because I don't mind the cover of a book.
You don't have to meet me with expectations and stuff,
because I just want to have a great time with you and laugh.
You see I don't want to put any pressure on especially you,
I just want to see you and find out if you're true.

And don't feel like you have to put something on the line,
I'll just be more than happy to see you, everything will be fine.
I've just planned some videogames, talking and chillin',
There's no rush to push any untamed feeling.
I know it's hard to hush the reason behind this poetry I write,
But I just want you to know that everything will be all right.

I know you think I'm weird in a very good way,
makes sense when talking about werewolfs that are gay.
Whoever reads this will probably wonder, where's the good in that!?
But it's enough if we know that there's no rabbit in the hat.
I can't help laughing to my own jokes, but who cares?
I know you appreciate that someone dares.




I've been waiting for you to come online,
but I can wait forever to make you mine.
I guess it's easier for me to accept this feeling,
I believe it's also a way to reduce my bleeding.
Because I don't want to hide anything anymore,
I just want you here, standing on my shore.

You've probably figure it out, that there are many shores,
but you should know that I want mine, to be forever yours.
I can't stop dreaming about you and me, ending up together,
I'd show you that pink clouds has nothing, to do with the weather.
I'm gonna spice up your life, show you more than you've ever imagine,
be your dream, where I'm the one, to always catch you when you're falling.

But I can't be the turncoat for nothing you know,
I've opened up to much, now I have to let go.
I need to get away from you, I need to start all over,
I need to ride away from you, and climb another tower.
I couldn't help picturing you as my beautiful queen,
but you've made it clear, I need to find another dream.

Thanks for everything you've shared, I won't forget,
I will just miss every single minute we had on the net.
Wherever you are, I bet you will find someone better,
someone that have no feelings, or whatsoever.
This will be goodbye forever, this is where we part,
just remember that I would've never, broken your heart.




What are theese unanswered feelings I have of mine?
Why can't I just forget you and when will I feel fine?
What should I'd done to not drive myself away from you?
What should you'd done if I hadn't shown myself to be true?
Would it'd felt better if I'd made you not have a single clue?
What if I hadn't opened up and explained everything to you?

You're one of those few I want to share all my thoughts for.
No matter what, I will not hide my feelings any more.
I guess that's one of the many things I've learned from you,
but you've also made me too weak to find someone new.
You're so cold and emotionless with your own opinions and views,
but somewhere I've seen your heart, too afraid for a bruise.

I bet you're afraid of feelings you've never experienced or known.
Maybe you're afraid to go somewhere that doesn't feels like home.
But I can tell you this, you will never know by running away,
You will never know by just pretending it's raining every day.
I just want you to know that if running away is what you choose,
we will never know who we are, and you will make us lose.

I'm sorry but there's no limits for me in this universe.
And you should stop thinking that you've been cursed.
We got so much for granted, I know we'd do great.
I don't know about you, but I don't believe in fate.
I believe in that everything is what we make it to be.
And I still want to believe in that it's up to just you and me.




I've talked about you to my family and friends,
and they keep on telling me that it all depends.
And I have to ask them, depends on what?
And they tell me that, if she likes you or not.
So they want me to think you don't like me at all,
but I tell them that's something I can not recall.

They also tell me that I've probably made you pretty scared,
just like this poem I write to show you, how much I really care.
But I tell them how my feelings are ten times greater and more,
that if I'd ever hold you in my arms, even this poem would look poor.
I'm not sure, maybe I scare people off just by being me,
but this is me, and no one can change how I feel.

They also have a hard time to understand why I took off,
but I bet you need feelings like mine to understand what's tough.
Maybe you think I don't care and just left because that's what I wanted,
but believe me when I say it's because in my dreams I'm fucking haunted.
Haunted by you and the life we could share forever, you and I,
haunted by a happiness I want to know before the day I'll die.

You probably think it's my problem if I dream about you,
and yes it is, but it's the best problem I know too.
A problem I'd like to just hold and never let go.
A problem I'd never argue with to go slow.
A problem I'd enjoy every single second with for sure,
A problem I'd love to show the eternal door.




I'm running out of words to describe how I feel.
I doubt this poem will ever let my heart to heal.
I wish I could write more about this wonderful crush,
but how am I suppose to do that when all I want to write about is us?
We haven't met, and I'm tired of speculating things,
it feels like I'm trying to fly, but I need two wings.

I wish you could bring me that other wing to let us fly,
just hopefully give it a chance or at least give it a try.
I've always thought and still think there's a way to see you,
to make my grey sky crack and light up my horizon to be blue.
Will we ever meet? There's only one that knows.
Will we end up together? Will you get hit by Amors arrows?

If there's still a chance for me to see you, please let me know,
beacause that's what I've ever wanted, just to take it slow.
I just wanna have a talk with you about everything that crosses your mind,
just meet as friends, get to know each other and have a very good time.
You know I already got feelings for you but what's the bad in that?
Would it be so wrong to just meet in real life and have a chat?

Maybe there's nothing I can do to change your mind,
I don't know how to make you see I'm one of a kind.
I would never lie to you Emelie, I'm the sweetest thing around.
I just want you to know who you've actually found.
Now I'll leave your poem like this, it's all up to you,
see me, or treat me like I'm someone you never knew.

Fredrik - January 2009







Irasema

I fled to the other side of the planet for you my love.
You're that special girl I believe you have to fight the world for.
But nothing can tear me apart from you now.
Finally the fight for this question of love is over.
I've found the missing piece of my heart
and I've found the answer to my reason-
You're everything I want!

I've spend more time with you than with my former girlfriends together.
But the best thing with you, is that you're everything they lack.
Sometimes I wonder what I've done to be worthy you,
maybe it's because I've always been the one who's been pulled down.
Pulled down from the edge of the world.
But this is the first time I feel I'm standing there with someone.
I'm standing there with you my love.

We've been through a lot in our past, and that makes a difference.
You know as much as I do about what love is worth.
We are indeed very different in many many ways.
But our love is equal, and nothing can change that.
Everybody have flaws, just like you and me.
Maybe we are blinded by our love. But even in this blindness,
I can see the light with you.

I believe I've been climbing this big mountain all my life.
And I've like many else picked the wrong flowers.
But since I saw you, I've been running straight for the top.
And when I reached this top, I found out I miss words for your beauty.
But I won't pick you like everybody else would.
No, I rather lay down and stay by your side,
because I want you to last forever with me.




This distance and time is hell, but I can wait forever if I have to.
I know I can wait because I'm the happeist guy on earth to have you.
This love is growing even without you. Everything that reminds me of
you makes me so warm inside. You let me look right through you and
I love everything I see. You have my heart Irasema and it's all yours.
People say I'm lost in love, but I wonder. I believe I've won everything.

You are everything I've ever wanted. Someone that cares, someone that
loves me back for the one I am. I've found out I've dreamt about you
all my life. I just had to find my dream and I've finally found you.
Maybe I'm insane, maybe I'm crazy, but ever since the day I started
talking to you, I could feel your pure soul, hear your warm heart
and see how you live to make people happy.

You make me feel so much more. I miss the way I feel with you.
Without you I'm looking up at all the mountains, but with you
I find them all below me. You complete me Irasema.
All I want is to make you happy. I wanna do everything with you.
I wanna experience everything with you. Share my life with you.
I wanna hold you so tight and never let go.

I wake up restless in the nights, feeling empty for missing you.
All I can do is let my mind sing the lullaby for my loneliness.
My heart waits for you. I feel your touch in every heartbeat.
Sometimes my eyes sting and I feel like I'm falling in darkness.
I'm falling down through my heart and soul. But it doesn't matter
how deep I'm falling anymore. One day I will fly with you forever.




oh baby I'm worried about you.
Nobody knows what we are going through.
Time is the poison, the distance got a cold.
Light never fades, you are everything I hold.

All theese feelings for you, I'm under pressure.
Walking through hell for you I do with pleasure.
I try to look at the bright side, I am afraid.
I hate goodbyes and I want you to stay.

I have to come down to earth, I have to try.
With you in my embrace, I'm going too high.
I will miss the heaven, will I go too far,
But I won't turn back, you are my forever star.

I try to write with my heart, it doesnt make sense.
Locked up in a cage, surrounded by this unpleasent fence.
I wanna explode. I wanna break everything that keeps us apart.
There is so much I got bubbled up, I dont know where to start.

I miss you more than ever, all about you is coming back.
All the memories of you and me, I'm under attack.
It's getting harder to breathe, I only find you within me.
Lost in my soul with you, where are you? I need you!

This never ending love, in war with distance and time.
Whatever happens to us, you will always be mine.
You make me happy and you make me feel.
Everything about you, this love is real.




My darling, my love, my eternal heaven,
I'm thinking of you, twentyfour seven.
You are my princess in this fairytale dream.
You are the passion of my endless affectionstream.

I miss you so much, this world have turned into a prison.
You are my power to carry on, you are my sweetest reason.
But even from this far away prison, I do what I can,
because with you I'm free, with you I'm a free man.

I know you are as lonely as me, and I feel bad about it.
I've even thought of going there, like for a one week round-trip.
But I rather save the money for what the future brings.
I know you want more than just a couple of rings.

But one of the best things with you is that you dont really mind,
you would still love me with nothing, because you are that kind.
Just like I love you for the one you are and nothing else,
that's why I want it to be us when we hear the church bells.

Bothering love with families and views.
Changing minds makes me confused.
I can't blame you, but whos wrong here.
Maybe our love is too strong dear.

But whatever happens, we are meant to be.
One day everyone, will surely see.
That this fairytale is ours and will forever be true.
That this fairytale is about love between me and you.




I miss you so much darling, what can I do,
I just wanna hold you, I just wanna be with you.
Close to your heart, in my warm embrace,
you and me till the end of the days.

I can tell that you are all the love I've ever recieved,
it's not hard to believe by the lovely way you treat me.
I feel so good to know that you love me like I love you,
I feel so good to know that it will be just me and you.

Everyday is one day closer to the heaven for you and me,
the day we step through the gate together, we will be free.
It's hard to keep all my feelings for you so deep inside,
but the day you will be my bride, you will surely see why.

I can't explain everything I feel, nothing would come out right.
I feel strong and weak when I picture me holding you tight.
I feel near and far when dreaming about you through the night,
I wanna be more than just your fairytale prince and knight.

Life and love have never been easy, maybe it never will be.
But with you there's nothing I have to figure out or see.
With you I can just close my eyes and forget about the past,
Because with you I hold your hand knowing that we will last.

You are so different from everyone else and thats why I love you.
You know whats right and wrong and you are the sweetest too.
Sometimes it's like you are the one facing all the bad things on your own,
But I will always be your sanctuary, I will always be your home sweet home.

Fredrik - Oktober 2009



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