Today I’ve like somewhat completed my remember-list. Like what to pack and bring with me for the get-away-sweden lol :D And I’ve booked laundry-time at monday hehe
The world is pulling the wrong strings. What have I done to this world? I feel anger and dissapointment to this reality, raising inside my chest, like the sun in the morning, you can’t stop it, and no one can.
I may be the link in this world, that either fails or makes everyone stronger. Is it up to me or the world to decide? It’s my life, I should know what’s best. But what if I dont, would the world be a better place?
I have no regrets and I don’t plan to make any. I live now, in this very moment. I follow my heart, because that makes me happier. I can control my mind, but my heart is me. I can change my mind, but not my heart.
I feel so weird and bad. My parents tells me I shouldn’t go if I’m not welcomed, and it stroke me like, what if I’m not welcomed?
They tell me it’s like I don’t care about anyone. Like I only think about myself, like I’m selfish!
But actually it’s the other way around. I guess it’s too hard to explain, they don’t know what I know, and I’ve opened up enough already. Yeah I hate this world, but I want to live and love my life.
If I’m not welcomed, I wount go. Too afraid to hurt my fragile soul? Don’t be! I’ve collect all the pieces from it before. I know the pattern by now, I just hate it.
I wanna change, I wanna be complete with you, I wanna show you the world within me. Your world.